Ephraim Matthew Nordyke is the actual spelling of his name. I got it wrong everywhere. :-p

God is being SOOO gracious with my family. We are all (well, all who are old enough to "get it") very aware of HOW purposeful and GOOD God is in this. Our faith and trust in The Lord has grown leaps and bounds over the past few days.

The church is being SO kind... my parents' caregroup just enveloped Mimi and I in prayer and love after church yesterday. My caregroup is calling, texting, emailing just to let me know they love me and are praying for my family... it's amazing to me how wonderfully God designed the church... i LOVE being part of a community. Even Mum said today that the only bad part is we live so far away it's really hard to be as much a part as we want to - but I think things are good.

There is a lot of tears and talking it through - but that's okay. I was SO blessed yesterday through counsel that I can 100% be honoring God and beliving God...and still cry. God is not ashamed of my grief. That was REALLY REALLY...freeing? I had felt so condemned because I thought that if I was upset then it meant I wasn't trusting God.

Today I had the sweetest quiet time on my lunch break. Just sitting in the sunshine - praying psalms - and just praying for myself and my family and my friends. God totally refreshed and met me.

I am lonely now, but that's totally normal for mondays when i am at work along for 4 hours. But, that's okay. God is 100% with me, and for me... and I AM NOT ALONE! That seems to be the theme of my past...month? God is FOR me and I am NOT ALONE!